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You are fiercly and passionately LOVED!

This is the day the Lord has made! I WILL rejoice and be glad in it! Psalm 118:24

Oh daily blogging how I have missed you greatly!
I think of you often!
I do really!
I have a new app on my phone to keep all my ideas and daily blessings in!
I have been creating a lot of new art to reflect the change inside this heart of mine!
I have even started a few more books, no not reading silly, writting!
Blogging is my true love and I must come back to you!
Ok enough of the silliness! But it's true, I LOVE to write, journal, create and blogg!
 So what am I thankful for today? Well where do I start? I need to recap the last few months, but I'll spare you all of that reading!
I feel most thankful right now today in this moment for my renewed faith, and since of purpose. Not that I lost my faith. It feels more ALIVE than ever! I feel this song welling up inside of me! My soul is singing and praising and it's overflowing !
I find myself singing to the radio, listening to my favorite Pandora station ( I have a few, Elevation Worship, Desperation Worship, Chris Tomlin and Bebo Norman)! And tears are just flowing, happy, wonderous, redemptive, healing, longing, so many emotions all at once.
I find myself just wanting to stay in that moment of worship, wanting to read more of Gods word, know the Bible inside and out,  createing all of this art, poetry, it just keeps coming!
When I must leave this place I remind my self that this life really truly is temporary and one day soon, I will never have to leave that moment! I was created to live in that moment for eternity but without any of the tears!
Then suddenly death is no longer that scary, the fear of it resides, not that I'm in a hurry!
But when that time comes i will live forever in that moment of worship!!! My heart longs to be there!
So while I'm still here waiting for my departure on this one way tickett to a place far more glorious than Hawaii, I will stay in the Word of God, I will saturate my heart with the songs of God, and my mouth will be an instrament of praise!
I had a beautiful moment this weekend at the Women of Faith conference, actually many but one in particular I will share now.
During the worship we were singing a song by David Crowder called "how He Loves us" i will place link at bottom.
I just started sobbing, I was in the row behind everyone in the group that came, I started praying for each one by name, specific prayers. You know sometimes you just uttera few littel prayers and sometimes you pray a littel more and seldom do I pray untill I'm so overcome with emotion that I literally just fall to pieces, crying, pouring out my heart to God, praying for freedom, praying for healing, for restoration! It was almost as The Lord had given me a word specific for each one! Then I could picture Jesus himself walking up to each one, hugging them, whispering in their ear, kissing their cheek, looking at them with this reassurance and compassion like I had never seen before.
Singing these words

Loves like a hurricane, I am a tree,
Bending beneath the weight of His wind and mercy

I could see each one of us bending but not breaking! A hurricane is a strong and mighty force, His mercy is THAT strong and fierce! WOW! I have heard this song and sang it numerous times! But I never saw it this way, He loves us, loves me fiercley and passisonately!  In Him my roots are planted strong! And if His hurricane can't blow me over then neither can the schemes of man or the enemy!!
I prayed and prayed, cried and wept, my heart was broken for each one of these ladies, their heart aches, their losses, their struggels, my heart wept with thanksgiving for the persaverance and the VICTORY that is theres and is coming!
The compassionate love of our Savior , genuine, sincere with no strings attatched, all ready He gave His life and now He offers us, offers me compassion.

This is why I"m thankful today, I am rejoicing today,

He is jealous for me,
Loves like a hurricane, I am a tree,
Bending beneath the weight of His wind and mercy.
When all of a sudden,
I am unaware of these afflictions eclipsed by glory,
And I realize just how beautiful You are,
And how great Your affections are for me.



his affection for me, for us is more beautiful than I can ever comprehend.
Be blessed, have a wonderful day, and never forget how passionately He LOVES YOU!
Love,
Destiny
Enjoy this song!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GzfPHnoT0-0

what does it mean?

This is the day the LORD has made and I will REJOICE and be glad in it. Psalm 118

What does it mean to rejoice? This is from from the free dictionary online,
re·joice  (r-jois)

v. re·joiced, re·joic·ing, re·joic·es

v.intr.

To feel joyful; be delighted: rejoiced at the news; rejoiced in her friend's good fortune.

v.tr.

To fill with joy; gladden.

Phrasal Verb:

rejoice in

To have or possess: rejoices in a keen mind.

To feel joyful, to be delighted. I wonder how could I not be delighted if I feel joyful? And if I'm in close relationship with the Lord, how could I not be gladdened?

My walk with the Lord has been growing every day, every moment in a new way. When I live my life for Him, to proclaim what He has done for me and not just praying like it's a chore or only when I need or want something, like he's this cosmic Santa Clause.

 But thanking Him with all He's done, thanking Him for waking me up to enjoy a new day, thanking Him for creating taste buds so I can enjoy my morning coffee, thanking Him for a  car to get to a job that allows me to pay for it, thanking Him for the friends I have, thanking Him for the clients I meet everyday, thanking Him when I get home and see my entire family has all come back to the safety and security of our home that He has provided, thanking Him for the beautiful blessings of my children, and thanking Him for providing a husband for me that is truly my best friend, how can I not rejoice?

I am richly blessed, I don't say this to brag, (well if you saw my honey, he's pretty cute!) I say this because over the past few years I'm realizing more and more, how incredibly rich I am, not in money but in blessings. No amount of money in the bank can compare to the love we share in our home, and the joy I have knowing that I get to fall asleep with mu husband while my kids are tucked in and awake to my best friend. We have something most people can only dream about. A beautiful marriage that is not filled with hateful words, a marriage that is built on truth and integrity. We have children, well I have children that he loves as his own. How many people can't have them or have lost them. And I am blessed with two.

Yes, of course going on vacation and all that are truly wonderful but if I didn't have him and the girls they would all be meaningless.

When I look at the challenges I face, recovering from past abuse issues, financial stress, petty arguments, running out of coffee creamer, I realize that all this will pass soon. When I say 'Lord I can't deal with this, I need you, " a peace overcomes me. When I have to confront life altering news and the unknown, it has taking my realtionship and prayer life to a different more deeper level, I realize more and more that without the support and love of the Lord, what do I have? Who is the one that will always listen, always be there, the only one that can truly comfort, that has the power to change the situation and the power to heal?

Yes He can work through people and use people, but ultimately He is in control.

That's fine with me, none of my friends can make a person out of dust, or heal a blind person or release me from the shame I've carried. So Why wouldn't I go to Him? Why wouldn't I trust Him?

And how can I not praise Him and rejoice in Him? How dare I only come to Him when I need something? How could I even have the audaucity to ask for a miracle if I can't even say thank you for the food in front of me?

So yes! Today I WILL rejoice and be glad! For this is another day the Lord has chosen to give to me! I will CELEBRATE all it has to offer!

Sea of Grace

This is the day the LORD has made and I will rejoice and be glad in it!!!! Psalm 118
Yes!! This is a good day!
I choose to rejoice in it!
My husband and I finally got to take our honeymoon! Our first time in Mexico. We spent almost a week in Cabo San Lucas, and it was perfect!
I remember walking through the resort thinking it was the most beautiful place I'd ever seen, I thought if this is paradise I couldn't imagine what Heaven would be like!
Then we were on the Sea of Cortez, overlooking beautiful rock formations, watching the sea lions flop about, the sky was a blanket of blue shimmering in the sun. I thought to myself, I can't believe you created this all out of nothing God. I was in awe of all the beauty around me. We saw whales and fish jumping. I was overwhelmed by the vastness of it all.
Out of nothing this was created.
With just a word it came to be.
This was the first time I really thought about this. I know the story of Genesis. I believe in creation. But this was the first time I saw it this way.
I thought of the Sea, how deep it was for these mighty whales to swim and I felt in my heart the Lord say to me 'as deep as the sea are your sins are from me'
Iv'e read the verses, heard it in a song, as far as the east is from the west, so are your sins from me.
This was the first time I was on a boat in the sea looking at all God had created for me, for us, simply because He loves us and hear him say 'as deep as the sea are your sins are from me'.
My heart was forever changed that day.
I wasn't looking for Him in that moment , I wasn't asking to be changed in that moment.
But He spoke truth to me in that moment and made me see what I needed to see.
Cabo was the most beautiful place I have been on earth so far, everywhere we went surprised me more and more. I can't even begin to imagine how beautiful heaven will be.
I'm realizing the older I get how fast life really does go by and I'm only 37 as I write this.
Psalm 90:12 Teach us to number our days that we may gain a heart of wisdom.
I rejoice today, because I left my sorrow in the sea.
These words were spoken to me, but they are meant for all of us. Whatever is weighing you down, toss it into the sea, let it sink away to the depths and be no more! Shed the coat we all have worn , that heavy coat of shame, let it. be washed away in this endless sea of forgiveness.
Dive in to the sea and swim in the vastness of His grace. Because when you do you will feel free.

Micah 7:19


You will again have compassion on us;
    you will tread our sins underfoot
    and hurl all our iniquities into the depths of the sea

Psalm 103:12
as far as the east is from the west,
    so far has he removed our transgressions from us.

May you swim in the Sea of Gods grace today and everyday,
                      Destiny

today i will rejoice: 67 years to live

today i will rejoice: 67 years to live: Psalm 39:5 You have made my days a mere handbreadth; the span of my years is as nothing before you. Each man's life is but a breath han...

67 years to live

Psalm 39:5 You have made my days a mere handbreadth; the span of my years is as nothing before you. Each man's life is but a breath

handbreadth [ˈhændˌbrɛtθ -ˌbrɛdθ], hand's-breadth

n

(Mathematics & Measurements / Units) the width of a hand used as an indication of length

 

I lay in bed rubbing the sleep from my eyes wondering what the day will bring. The alarm goes off and I hear the D.J say it's the 137th day of the year. I have this picture in my head of a calendar page being ripped away, not the date, but a countdown of how many days I have left to live. Weird.

But days later I can't shake it, this picture of this callendar tearing away the days I have left to live, I see the pages blowing away in the wind.

Months later my mind is going crazy with thoughts about how fast life is going, I can't slow it down, I will die one day. Is my faith real? Is Jesus who He says he is? What if i'm wrong, what if Christanity is wrong, what if it is all an elaborate lie?

I watch A CASE FOR CHRIST a documentary by Lee Strobel http://topdocumentaryfilms.com/the-case-for-christ/

He is a journalist/athesist set out to find the truth, and I realize again the answers to my questions, yes my faith is real, there is proof, there is historical evidence and documentation, but I beleived before the proof was in front of me. So why these doubts?

My friend text me around this time and wonders why I seem different lately. I just reviewed my text and I stated to her "God is working in my soul and it is not always beautiful" I go on to tell her that I'm praying fervently for two huge miracels, one for my Dad to discover the truth of who Jesus is and second for my husbands feet to be healed."It is incredibly emotional and overwhelming praying for the two men in my life I love the most and unconditionally,then my own heart, deceitful,dark at it's core, why would a God of pure love want to answer much less listen. I know the verses in my head about how HE delights in me, that I am saved, but my heart is different, the questions are too big.My life I know is a mere handbreadth, that's a few inches,each day is a countdown.I feel almost overwhelmed not to waste a moment, my impact. I don't want to be forgotten,is that prideful? it wakes me up at night, but has taken my prayer life to a different place, my thoughts of life and reality different. I almost feel crazy or manic at times and who would understand all this crazziness in my head without comitting me? My mind is a whirling tornado, do you understand?"

My friend is wonderful and just happens to be a therapist!! She replys "I have had a feeling things have been building in you. We all have dark hearts and HE is listening and loves you HE may just be starting a new you like the pot john talked about  in church, we all make mistakes, you sound extremelyextremely overwhelmed but not crazy! Look for today not the end of your life. you are leaving a legacy my dear and are impacting people each day! You are such a prayer warrior. Do not let Satan convince you of lies!"

Two months after this conversation I see the pages whirling all around me and I can not catch them.

My life is a span of approximately 2 inches.

 

Today is September 9th 2012. It's been about 3 months now since I first saw those calendar pages, and it seems like yesterday, time is passing.

 

Psalm 144:4 Man is like a breath; his days are like a fleeting shadow. This is what I can't get out of my head, hopefully I can get it across with written words what I'm really trying to say. My plan is to live to be 100 if I can. Lets assume I do, because all of this is based on that. When I'm 99 I think  I'll be afaid to go to sleep! Will I be waiting and watching to die? This idea scares me. Let's back up to now. For awhile I have had this feeling that God is about to do something really big in my life, and really big things have been happening and with that another blessing unfolds and He does something else! These blessings and answers to prayers are coming faster and faster like an avalanche! Even in the midst of doubt and difficulties He continues to answer. Before my lips can sing praise and my hands can complete the task before me, God opens another door, sends down another blessing, fulfills another desire within my heart, and pours out His love on me. I feel  unworthy at times, but my head tells me because I am redeemed I am worthy, sometimes my head and my heart have a difficult time making the connection. Jeremiah 29 11For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. 12Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. 13You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. 14I will be found by you,” declares the Lord, “and will bring you back from captivity.b I will gather you from all the nations and places where I have banished you,” declares the Lord, “and will bring you back to the place from which I carried you into exile.” I read this and I beleive this. I am watching it unfold in my life, I am a testimony to this entire passage here.  My mind is still a whirling tornado. I have 67 years to live, it seems like a lot but it's not. I realize this week that the chance of me being alive right now in this time is so slim. I wish I knew matmatics and probabilities for the number! I think about how if one person in my genealogy wasn't born I wouldn't be here. I'm sure somewhere in my line someone had an affair that led to a pregnency, someone had an abortion, someone had an unplanned pregnency, if none of that would of happened I wouldn't be here, of all the times my parents could of conceived and didn't untill that one time. then at church this morning we started the book of EXODUS and read these verses  15The king of Egypt said to the Hebrew midwives, whose names were Shiphrah and Puah, 16“When you help the Hebrew women in childbirth and observe them on the delivery stool, if it is a boy, kill him; but if it is a girl, let her live.” 17The midwives, however, feared God and did not do what the king of Egypt had told them to do; they let the boys live Wow! Now my mind is really spinning! If the midwives hadn't feared God, if the baby that was killed was a descendant in my line then I wouldn't be here! Ok so I'm here on earth and it all had to allign in such a way for me to be here, if I wasn't neither would my kids and their future children, all of my conversations with others would be non existant, my salon wouldn't be here, my art would never be seen and so on, and who would my husband be married too? Then my brain goes another step, why was I born now in this time, this generation? I could of been born 100 years ago or 100 years from now. I could of been born on the street to a drug addict or a prostitute, I could of been born in a slum in a third world country, or one of the millions born into severe poverty in the deslolate villages in Africa, the list goes on. I realize I have won the lottery of life, to be born in America is a chance, and right now in this day and age, what a blessing. We have so much here! So now I see that my life can not just be a random chance, it's not pointless. But I look around at all the people and I don't just see people. I see it as this generation, and one day this generation will pass, like the generations before me. Life hasn't been just what it is right now, there was so much before me and there will be so much after me. Ecclesiastes 1 Everything Is Meaningless 1 The words of the Teacher,[a] son of David, king in Jerusalem: 2 “Meaningless! Meaningless!” says the Teacher. “Utterly meaningless! Everything is meaningless.” 3 What do people gain from all their labors at which they toil under the sun? 4 Generations come and generations go, but the earth remains forever. 5 The sun rises and the sun sets, and hurries back to where it rises. 6 The wind blows to the south and turns to the north; round and round it goes, ever returning on its course. 7 All streams flow into the sea, yet the sea is never full. To the place the streams come from, there they return again. 8 All things are wearisome, more than one can say. The eye never has enough of seeing, nor the ear its fill of hearing. 9 What has been will be again, what has been done will be done again; there is nothing new under the sun. 10 Is there anything of which one can say, “Look! This is something new”? It was here already, long ago; it was here before our time. 11 No one remembers the former generations, and even those yet to come will not be remembered by those who follow them.   I am here for this season,  God has created me for a reason, He has a plan to prosper me, not to harm me, I am not the first person to have all these questions. I am feeling a mixture of excitement and anxiousness. I am feeling more alive now than I ever have realizing and really feeling in my being the truth that I have a purpose. God designed me specifically, for this time! I don't want to mess my chance up. I don't want to let God down, I feel a great deal of responsibility, I feel like this is also the most exciting revelation of my life!!....so far!!!! I think looking at my life as a countdown not to death but my new life, has changed everything. All these objects I try to attain and the acceptance of the people around me, no longer seems to be so important. yes I do care about others opinions but it is not the driving force behind my actions, yes I do like beautiful clothes and nice things, but it does not determine my worth or value. My life is not to be meassured by things, but I want to live out what I know is true, what I beleive, I want to live love and be remebered for love. To me that is of value. When I take my final breath as we all will, this entire generation will, when our vapor has dissaperared... JAMES 4:14 Why, you do not even know what will happen tomorrow. What is your life? You are a mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes When the midst of my life vanishes I will c Acts 20:24 24 However, I consider my life worth nothing to me; my only aim is to finish the race and complete the task the Lord Jesus has given me—the task of testifying to the good news of God’s graceling to this My  mind is still a whirling tornado of thoughts and questions but it feels good to see my thoughts out of my head.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

today i will rejoice: Legacy of love

today i will rejoice: Legacy of love: Today I will rejoice, because 'this is the day the LORD has made and I will rejoice and be glad in it.' Psalm 118:24 I'ts been way to long ...