Monday, October 10, 2011

today i will rejoice: today i will rejoice: Day 25 Renew

today i will rejoice: today i will rejoice: Day 25 Renew: today i will rejoice: Day 25 Renew : This is the day the LORD has made and I will rejoice and be glad in it! Psalm 118:24 Day 25 Of daily ch...

Saturday, October 8, 2011

Day 26 winds of change

This is the day the LORD has made and I will rejoice and be glad in it! Psalm 118:24

Day 26 Giving thanks everyday no matter what life brings for 6 months

It's a beautiful day. I can hear it before my eyes open, birds chirping outside, I can hear the wind blowing. I think someone poured concrete in my eyes because they wont open yet! Coffe. If I can just get to the kitchen!So I lay there listening to the world outside my window. I wonder what it's like to be a bird, what are they saying, what are they planning to do for the day.
Estella comes sleepily into my room, ahhhh, my favorite thing in the world, cuddel time with the girls, wish Angel was here too. I wish there was no school or work today, i wish we could lay here and cuddel and talk for hours,but time to get up, 6:30 am is ridiculous I think.
Walking out to the buss stop we say Psalm 118 everyday, have ever since Angel was a littel girl. Today Estella is thankful for being on time! I say I am thankful for the time we had this morning and lots of hugs and kisses! She giggels and says she is too and throws her arms around me for another big hug. We talk about the birds singing and joke that it's a boy bird singing to the pretty girl bird to make her fall in love with him! Then more laughter because we call Matt Mr.Lovebird.
As she gets on the bus and we wave one last time my heart is overflowing with emotion and I pray for the bus driver that he is safe and there will never be an accident, I don't know why but suddenly I was caught off guard by the fear of loosing her. What if that was our last morning?What if that was our last cuddel? Or last walk?
As soon as the thoughts came,I rebuked them. I think of the verse from Jeremiah " For I know the plans I have for you declares the Lord,plans to prosper you,plans not to harm you, but plans to give you hope and a future" 29:11
The Lord is good and I trust him.
I walk home and am amazed at the beauty of the changing leaves all around me, wondering if everyone on my street had a wondeful morning as me. Did they have the time with their kids that I did? Did they hang on to every second? Do they ever think of the what ifs? and if they do does it make them appeciate the littel things more?
I feel this emotion rising up inside of me waiting to burst! I want everyone on my street everyone on my block to feel this rush of love. I want them to realize that just like the changing leaves our children are changing and they are vibrant today but soon the wind will come and the season will change and the tress will be bear and just like my precious girls , entering a new season of life.

I come into the house and pour Angel a fresh coffee and bring it to her room, I really don't have time, I need to get ready for work myself, but I really didn't have the time not to, tomorrow it wont matter if my hair wasn't perfectly placed, what matters now is that moment in wishing her a wonderful day and kissing her sweet face as she wipes the sleep from her eyes and says "thank you for the coffee mom, i'm really tired, i have a test today, oh and i love you so much" I love you more than anything i tell her, and i do, i love them both more than anything in the world and even if i live to be 100 years old, it wont be long enough to tell them I love them, and I wont be able to give them all the littel kisses I want and i'm sure on my last breath I'll ask for one more hug and breathe my last with a kiss on their cheek.
Today I am thankful for realizing the importance of the moment. I am thankful I am learning not to take these littel moments for granted and treasuring each one of them like the jewel it is, priceless.

Thank you Lord so much for understanding what is truly important, sooner than later, help me continue to keep my prorities straight, help to guide my words and actions in love always, protect these girls from all that is harmful, all that is evil in this world, may they always see the beauty and the gifts all around them, may they realize sooner than later to hang onto these littel moments, because as soon as the leaves turn the wind comes and blows them away we are left with a memory, let that memory be beautiful. Thank you again, bless us with a long healthy life together to praise you. Amen

Thursday, October 6, 2011

today i will rejoice: Day 25 Renew

today i will rejoice: Day 25 Renew: This is the day the LORD has made and I will rejoice and be glad in it! Psalm 118:24 Day 25 Of daily challenge to give thanks and praise ...

Wednesday, October 5, 2011

Day 25 Renew

 This is the day the LORD has made and I will rejoice and be glad in it! Psalm 118:24
Day 25  Of daily challenge to give thanks and praise everyday for 6 months no matter what life brings.

Yesterday was a great day, I had the opportunity to sit and listen to a good friend whos heart is broken. Not that it's good that she is so wounded by life, but good because she trust me, good because I paused and set my stuff down and listened with full attention and allowed my heart to break with hers. Good because Iv'e been praying for many years to not let my heart be hardened by the pain of my past, and to always feel. Really feel and be compassionate , not just in saying it but helping to carry the burdeon of loss.
 I think back to my other blog I have called A JOURNEY WITH DESTINY , yes you can read it, it's very different from this and I encourage you to read it and share it with your friends.
Anyway I feel like I've been living on top of the mountain even with the buisyness of my life. Im up there on the mountain enyoing the goodness of God and his grace.
But there comes a time when you have to journey down the mountain to pick up a friend, I have journeyed down the mountain alone, actually I have fallen over the cliff and landed at the bottom in a dark and desolate pit and I don't want my friend to be there alone, it's a very scary place.
So toay is a good day. God has given me the strenght and the courage to go to this place and meet my friend there. I see her crumpled in the dirt, facce caked with mud, to week to even shed another tear, too broken to lift her face to the sky and feel the warmth of the Son.
So pray with me, pray for healing, pray for new life, pray for courage so she can live again. Pray she has the strenght to rise up and make the journey with me to the top of the mountain.
Psalm 34:8 Taste and see that the LORD is good; blessed is the man who takes refuge in him.
There is an abundance at the mountain top, please wont you journey with us so we may all taste the delcious fruit from the tree and celebrate together.
I am thankful for friendships.Compassion.Love.I am thankful for healing.
Lord I come before you this morning and praise you for the beauty of today, thank you for the warm sun in october and the chatter of the squirrels outside. Thank you for wanting to hear our prayers,wanting to listen to me, I find it amazing that the God who created the entire universe actually cares enough about me and what I think! Please please please let my friend feel you all around her today, let her feel love, give her the strenght for today, strenght for the moment, heal her brokenness and renew her life! thank you god! I know you can do it! amen

Tuesday, October 4, 2011

Day 16-24 and a few more, All a Blurr

This is the day the Lord has made and I will rejoice and be glad in it.Psalm 118:24
 My daily blog for 6 months on rejoicing everyday for 6 months no matter what life brings. It seems to be one long day of 8 days of creativity and craziness!
After coming back from the art retreat and playing with the idea of a butterfly I have been busy flapping these littel wings everywhere.
So the days continue to stretch into one and I didn't keep my word to myself for my daily blog.
LIFE
Let's see, art retreat, extension training/certification, house for sale, packing, organizing, looked at 54 houses, creative time in my art studio, work, coffe with friends, but most importantly time with family.
I have a ton of different projects going on, many changes, alll good, expanding my carreer oh and trying to figure out a wedding date and a place!
WHEW
This littel butterfly is tired!!
I am thankful that the lord has blessed me with so much! I am thankful he has given me the gift of creativity but I think what I am most thankful for during these 2 weeks of bussiness is rest. I had 2 naps this weekend, while traveling, one was in the car, but a nap either way! I just needed a littel down time and now after I make another cup of coffee and relax in the bath, I will emerge ready for flight for another amazing day!
I know everything will fall into place around me as it always does, another blessing from the Lord I know, so as I fly around doing my part I know without a doubt he is doing his part.

Thank you Lord for life, even when it's busy, I am reminded that some people don't have the strenght to get out of bed, or have a job or have children, or friends to have coffee with. Alot of people aren't blessed with my everyday conviences like clean water for a relaxing bath much less clean water for them and their children to drink to stay alive, some don't have  a bed to take a nap much less a safe nights sleep,and i complain about the uncomfortable car to sleep in, shame on me. Forgive my selfishness and give me a more compassionate heart and guide me in the directon to be your hands and feet to spread love to all those I see, that's the most important thing above all else I do   chor 13:1  ...and have not charity, I am become as sounding brass, or a tinkling cymbal...       I do not want to only be noise to the world but part of a beautiful song. amen