Day 26 winds of change

This is the day the LORD has made and I will rejoice and be glad in it! Psalm 118:24

Day 26 Giving thanks everyday no matter what life brings for 6 months

It's a beautiful day. I can hear it before my eyes open, birds chirping outside, I can hear the wind blowing. I think someone poured concrete in my eyes because they wont open yet! Coffe. If I can just get to the kitchen!So I lay there listening to the world outside my window. I wonder what it's like to be a bird, what are they saying, what are they planning to do for the day.
Estella comes sleepily into my room, ahhhh, my favorite thing in the world, cuddel time with the girls, wish Angel was here too. I wish there was no school or work today, i wish we could lay here and cuddel and talk for hours,but time to get up, 6:30 am is ridiculous I think.
Walking out to the buss stop we say Psalm 118 everyday, have ever since Angel was a littel girl. Today Estella is thankful for being on time! I say I am thankful for the time we had this morning and lots of hugs and kisses! She giggels and says she is too and throws her arms around me for another big hug. We talk about the birds singing and joke that it's a boy bird singing to the pretty girl bird to make her fall in love with him! Then more laughter because we call Matt Mr.Lovebird.
As she gets on the bus and we wave one last time my heart is overflowing with emotion and I pray for the bus driver that he is safe and there will never be an accident, I don't know why but suddenly I was caught off guard by the fear of loosing her. What if that was our last morning?What if that was our last cuddel? Or last walk?
As soon as the thoughts came,I rebuked them. I think of the verse from Jeremiah " For I know the plans I have for you declares the Lord,plans to prosper you,plans not to harm you, but plans to give you hope and a future" 29:11
The Lord is good and I trust him.
I walk home and am amazed at the beauty of the changing leaves all around me, wondering if everyone on my street had a wondeful morning as me. Did they have the time with their kids that I did? Did they hang on to every second? Do they ever think of the what ifs? and if they do does it make them appeciate the littel things more?
I feel this emotion rising up inside of me waiting to burst! I want everyone on my street everyone on my block to feel this rush of love. I want them to realize that just like the changing leaves our children are changing and they are vibrant today but soon the wind will come and the season will change and the tress will be bear and just like my precious girls , entering a new season of life.

I come into the house and pour Angel a fresh coffee and bring it to her room, I really don't have time, I need to get ready for work myself, but I really didn't have the time not to, tomorrow it wont matter if my hair wasn't perfectly placed, what matters now is that moment in wishing her a wonderful day and kissing her sweet face as she wipes the sleep from her eyes and says "thank you for the coffee mom, i'm really tired, i have a test today, oh and i love you so much" I love you more than anything i tell her, and i do, i love them both more than anything in the world and even if i live to be 100 years old, it wont be long enough to tell them I love them, and I wont be able to give them all the littel kisses I want and i'm sure on my last breath I'll ask for one more hug and breathe my last with a kiss on their cheek.
Today I am thankful for realizing the importance of the moment. I am thankful I am learning not to take these littel moments for granted and treasuring each one of them like the jewel it is, priceless.

Thank you Lord so much for understanding what is truly important, sooner than later, help me continue to keep my prorities straight, help to guide my words and actions in love always, protect these girls from all that is harmful, all that is evil in this world, may they always see the beauty and the gifts all around them, may they realize sooner than later to hang onto these littel moments, because as soon as the leaves turn the wind comes and blows them away we are left with a memory, let that memory be beautiful. Thank you again, bless us with a long healthy life together to praise you. Amen