seeing beyond

This is the day the Lord has made and I will rejoice and be glad in it. Psalm 118:24

Amazing what a littel excercise and a goods night sleep can do!!! I feel wonderful!!! I never should of plugged in the heating blanket though, I could stay in these blankets all day!!

 Today I am thankful for the ability to see beyond. Beyond the mess, beyond the chaos, beyond the extra money required, beyond what is seeming to take forever.
We are remodeling an old salon into a very contemporary, very cool and upbeat salon/art studio. I thought it would take a week. It is taking alot longer than that and all these littel problems keep coming up that are slowing us down. Problems below the surface that no one knew was there.

Like my own heart. It always looks good from the outside, but if you really start to pull back the layers something else is revealed, things I thought were buried so deep no one, not even myself would ever discover.
We painted the walls and as the paint is drying it blisters all over, we keep peeling the paint away and repainting, still not working, so we texture and mud the area, repaint, still bubbeling. My heart is that wall, layers and layers of stuff to hide the yucky stuff, but like the walls, it's covered in mud. We realize the walls had been wallpapered a million years ago and repainted a hundred times, but the shiney gloss I was applying was reacting with the old glue from the wallpaper. No one had ever taken the time to scrape it away and start anew.

I think how many times do I ,do we try to hide under the shiney gloss? All it takes is a great hair day, some pretty lipgloss and a nice big smile, but soon the bubbels will come forth, and like the blistering walls the heart that has been wounded, covered in mud, blisters, almost begging to be scraped clean and made anew.
I know that in the grand scheme of things, it dosen't really matter if the salon opens a week or two later, somehow the money will come and everything will work out. what matters is that it's been restored  and from that day forward I know it is how it should be,the blisters are gone and the roughness that peeks through the glitter, well that's okay because like my heart there will be healing and it's okay to let the rough edges show, those scars are my story, and they helped form who I am, and I don't need to cover it in mud anymore.